Diagnosis can help us feel understood. But it’s not who we are. This is a reminder to grow beyond the label and into simply being you.

What if Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria isn’t just about brain wiring—but also about a lifetime of being told, in subtle and not-so-subtle ways, that you’re too much?

Caring doesn’t always invite kindness in return. Sometimes, it attracts the very opposite. And yet, after years of feeling misunderstood and rejected, I’ve come to realise that my sensitivity isn’t a flaw—it’s my strength. In a world that often values distance over connection, I’ve chosen to protect my tender heart. Because kindness is what this world needs now more than ever.

I don’t want to spend my life managing symptoms, fighting my body, or hacking my diet in the hope of functioning better. I want to get to the root of it. I want to understand why my body is stuck.

My curiosity led me to explore dopamine, that elusive neurotransmitter, and I found myself questioning: Are dopamine issues the result of trauma, toxins, genes, lifestyle or a mix of all these?

I’ve felt shame for growing up in poverty and neglect. Shame for struggling to function in a world that expects constant productivity. Shame for questioning societal norms and making unconventional choices.

We've been taught to look for trauma in the past, in our parents, in our childhoods. But what if the real struggle lies in simply living in a world that doesn’t align with who we are? The deeper I dug into trauma, the more I realised that the real issue wasn’t about fixing the past—it was about surviving the present.

ADHD often feels like having a brain that’s constantly switching channels, unable to settle on one. For me, it’s a paradox of intense dedication and persistent struggles—finishing what I start but running in circles without structure.

I didn’t set out to live a low-tox life. In fact, I resisted it. But life has a way of nudging you in directions you never planned. For me, it came in the form of unanswered questions about my health and my son’s struggles—questions that led me to uncover the invisible impact of the world around us. What started as resistance turned into a way of life, one choice at a time.

One of the deepest traumas in my life is feeling like I’m always ‘too much.’ My thoughts, my needs, my very self. It’s not a made-up sentiment; it’s rooted in years of being reminded that my authenticity is ‘too weird’ or ‘too much.’ Whether I’m socialising, managing relationships, or simply trying to cope, the message I get is clear: I don’t fit.

Healing is a journey, not a destination. It's about striving to improve our well-being, even when the odds seem stacked against us. In a world where many resist the idea of healing, we are often left to explore alternative paths, discovering that true healing encompasses body, mind, and spirit. It’s a journey fraught with challenges, but it is one worth pursuing—whether it's healing with trauma, neurodivergence, or dealing with the struggles of our daily lives.